Hey, friends, family, or anyone else from the inter-webs. Imma be honest, imma instagram guy. Amongst many other things, It's fun, simple, allows for me to be creative, and it connects me to the world. As a High School Pastor it allows be to get a pulse on the lives of students, it keeps me relevant, and in many ways, is my number one news resource.
Now, if you're like me, which In this case, I am assuming you are. Instagram becomes a mechanism to numb my brain and gives me something to do when I am bored. Instagram isn't all the time bad, and I certainly don't want to paint the picture that it is... but in talking with my wife, I wanted to experiment and rediscover the world around me by putting my phone down, and take a month off of the ever-so-lovley instagram
Here's three things I discovered:
1) I was bored, and I didn't know what to do with my hands.
I went to a sandwich place to get some sandys for the fam. After I ordered I had to wait for the sandwiches to be made. Well, I went and sat at a table, and without even thinking, I pressed on the folder Instagram sits in, and tried to click the now empty space once occupied by the app. It was gone, and my heart stopped. What was I suppose to do? Look around? Say hi to someone? open a different app.
This happened maybe 100 times over the course of the month. I realized that Instagram, for me, had become muscle memory. Whoa! In those moments I found myself reading the news, reading the bible, thinking, praying, or talking to someone.
2) I felt closer to my wife and kids.
Ok you're thinking, yeah right?! But no joke, this was a crazy learning for me. Because I quit instagram for a month, my wife felt guilty getting on instagram in front of me. My decision made her react and act according to my decision. I'm not sure we had more intentional conversations, or that we cuddled more... but no doubt we gave each other more intentional time and presence. This, in and of itself, keeps me from wanting to turn it on ever again.
3) Life went on with or without me
I missed a lot of things. But who even cares?! I got most of my sports news, meme laughs, and updates on peoples lives because of instagram. So of course I was days late to hearing about Blake Griffin getting traded to Detroit, or my friends getting pregnant, or that persons incredible camp trip, or my friends kid laughing hysterically at a cartoon... But, what I learned is that others lives still went on. And it happened without me. But what I also learned, is that my life can't go on unless I put down phone and live in it.
I learned to take a step back from reality, put my head up, look around me, pay attention to my kids, call my parents, and sit by the fire on my tiny patio, and enjoy the dry California winter. Life is beautiful when you experience it through your own eyes.
It's February 1, and Instagram is back on my phone. I am indeed excited to catch up, but greater, I am excited to see how this instagram-less month begins to bleed into the rest of my year! Cheers, 2018.
Til' Next Time